` me. just me *

020505 ; whatajoke

okayy. let me replay what happened today. i'm feeling so rotten again.

okayy. here it goes.

i spent a wonderful four hours with wil. then i found out something too horrific to be put down here. i asked him directly. and he came up with like uhhh many many reasons. or rather excuses. yes. and they all contradict. i disnt know hw to respond. during the bus ride back. i was just trying so hard to think it through.

are all guys the same? do they just keep everything to themselves. or do they just listen to what i have to say. they dont tell me everything. but i want to know. i dont want people to just listen to all i have to say. i want to know what is going on. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. grr.

it was probably the quietest walk back to my house i can ever remember. after surviving the prelims. O levels. promm. orientation. last wkend. all happened. one day before our 52nd week. two days before our first year.

//im cracking

xxx
; SMILE